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16 years ago
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
whoa, life update.
Its been awhile. Just been working, and trying to see Josh as much as possible, and trying to get things squared away for the move. Josh and Iwent to virginia beach two weeks ago, and we spent all day yesterday at da mall, and eating too much sweets. I got one of my ears to 7/8. sadly Im lopsided and cant get the other sonuvvagun in. Work has been shitty. But whats new. Cant wait to leave that place. Josh was patient and sweet enough to bare with me and makeup shopping. This weekend we have big plans that involve blanket caves, beers, sheps pie. Its the weekend before his birthday and I cant wait to give him his present. Only like a million more days til friday. urghh. dentist appointment tmrw. Im glad monday is over though, cus thats one day closer to Josh, and mondays are the worst. VCU open house this weeknd. kinda wanna skip it just so josh and i can sleep in and cuddle and be awesome. Im getting an iphone ths weekend! thats really exciting. ive been taking a lot of film recently, and getting kinda shitty results. i got like, no feedback on twenty plus pictures i posted the other day so im asuming they suck. i think im overwhelming myself. i got some colour negative film this past weekend but im going to save it for this weekend. hopefully we can get a scoot ride in! i realize how jumbled and jumpy this post is. but, eh. its my blog.
Friday, February 5, 2010
rebelyell
Blizzard time, and I'm prepared with ten rolls of film, my lomo's and that piece of shit rebel I keep around. I decided today that I want to focus all of my "creative energy"on photography, seeing as its my favorite medium, and the only thing Im pretty good at. I spent five hours on lomography.com today. I think my next purchase is going to be a Hola pinhole (FUCKYEAH), some color negative film, and once I move to Richmond I would really like to get he Diana F+ deluxe package (fisheye? count me in). ALSO, ordered a Fuji Instax today from McLanahans, which is the shittiest place ever. The kid on the phone was an idiot. But whatever. Anyways, here are a few random pictures from said Rebel that I kinda like.
Monday, January 25, 2010
01/25/10
Some macro prints of makeup, and such. Took about 226 pictures and these were the best, which isnt say much. Oh well, getting a d40 or a d50 next week. Thats pretty awesome.
-paw
ps I love Joshua Robert.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
We need a break room.
Got to see my amazing boyfriend last night, and got to wake up next to his perfectness (that's a word, i just deemed it so). Pretty crucial night, involving being undefeated at flipcup, jello shooters (with wayyyy to much vodka), breaking chairs, and boyfriend-defiance, ohio-sing a longs : ). Anyways, kindof exploding with new ideas for some photos so thats going to be cool. I want to get started now but the hangover gods probably wont allow it. But there will be art, lots of it. I havent really had any inspiration in a long time, so its kindof awesome how eager I am to finally be back in the game. All thanks to Josh who is so supportive of my ideas and really motivates me, which is a big deal because he is an amazing artist. Anyways, stay tuned.
Friday, January 22, 2010
zombot
Got this little guy today. He's a zombie robot, and Josh has one similar, but Karl Marx molotov-cocktail style. Cant wait to do the shading, color, and add some crucial finishing details. I love it so much already. Means a lot to me. Anyways, a good dude by the name of Glenn @ Good Times Tattoo in Manassas did it. I realize that I keep writing with proper grammar, but is anyone even reading this? im going to stop doing that starting this sentence.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
..start something new..
2009 was probably the worst year of my life.
But the more I think about it, the more I realize that, as cliche as it sounds, everything happens for a reason.
A few things really brought me down in 2009.
Not being able to afford going back to school really sucked at the time, even though I hated Mason the idea of being behind, and the gut wrenching thought of never going back was just one more thought that pushed me closer to the edge of my already unstable anxiety. But, I always seem to forget that everything happens for a reason. As a result of my lack of finances for college, it gave me a chance to tell my mom that I wasnt going back to school unless it was in Richmond. And she bought it.
I also learned who my true friends were, but I don't need to tell the story. Part of me has almost forgiven her. The other part of me just likes talkin' shit. Oh well.
I guess the major catalytic event of this past year was my DUI. Which, well, didn't turn out to be a DUI (which I strongly believe is due to good wishing on someone amazing's behalf). And while it really sucks almost getting a DUI, I also learned from it. Its so depressing to think about, but I could have really hurt someone. I was lucky not to have. So it's a good thing I learned my lesson now, instead of later down the line. But it really took a toll on me, financially, mentally, socially, emotionally, and it especially took a toll on my relationship with my family. But, $1200 later, I'm still alive and I made it through in one piece.
All of these weird, shitty, or life changing things kept happening to me. I went through this strange series of failing and unhealthy relationships. Which, sucked at the time. And I still seem to be dealing with these people, but they happened for a reason. I feel like I learned a lot about myself, and the way I shouldn't and should be treated. Im happy to say that I have found something so amazing, so life changing, so perfect, so just...right. Well, I can't tell one from another, if I found him or he found me. But on November 10 of last year, I found my first sign of a better life to come. Joshua Robert. Everything about him takes my breath away. He is the most talented, creative, smartest, funny, loving, and perfect specimen of a man that I have ever laid eyes on. Making me the luckiest girl in the world, cus I get to keep him. For-ev-er.
I think that normally it would scare people to fall in love as quickly as we did, but if they are scared, then it isn't love. With him I'm not scared at all. It's right, and it's where I'm supposed to be. I wish I had the words to tell him how much I loved him, but the only words I know seem so cheap, and insubstantial compared to the way I feel. I have been struggling with this for quite some time now, but he serves as such a major source of inspiration for me. So, hopefully soon I will find a way to show him exactly how much love is pouring out of me.
So, heres to 2010, a year so full of promises, hope, adventures, love, empires, and togetherness.
9336 forever.
-Paw
ps I dont claim to be a good writer.
But the more I think about it, the more I realize that, as cliche as it sounds, everything happens for a reason.
A few things really brought me down in 2009.
Not being able to afford going back to school really sucked at the time, even though I hated Mason the idea of being behind, and the gut wrenching thought of never going back was just one more thought that pushed me closer to the edge of my already unstable anxiety. But, I always seem to forget that everything happens for a reason. As a result of my lack of finances for college, it gave me a chance to tell my mom that I wasnt going back to school unless it was in Richmond. And she bought it.
I also learned who my true friends were, but I don't need to tell the story. Part of me has almost forgiven her. The other part of me just likes talkin' shit. Oh well.
I guess the major catalytic event of this past year was my DUI. Which, well, didn't turn out to be a DUI (which I strongly believe is due to good wishing on someone amazing's behalf). And while it really sucks almost getting a DUI, I also learned from it. Its so depressing to think about, but I could have really hurt someone. I was lucky not to have. So it's a good thing I learned my lesson now, instead of later down the line. But it really took a toll on me, financially, mentally, socially, emotionally, and it especially took a toll on my relationship with my family. But, $1200 later, I'm still alive and I made it through in one piece.
All of these weird, shitty, or life changing things kept happening to me. I went through this strange series of failing and unhealthy relationships. Which, sucked at the time. And I still seem to be dealing with these people, but they happened for a reason. I feel like I learned a lot about myself, and the way I shouldn't and should be treated. Im happy to say that I have found something so amazing, so life changing, so perfect, so just...right. Well, I can't tell one from another, if I found him or he found me. But on November 10 of last year, I found my first sign of a better life to come. Joshua Robert. Everything about him takes my breath away. He is the most talented, creative, smartest, funny, loving, and perfect specimen of a man that I have ever laid eyes on. Making me the luckiest girl in the world, cus I get to keep him. For-ev-er.
I think that normally it would scare people to fall in love as quickly as we did, but if they are scared, then it isn't love. With him I'm not scared at all. It's right, and it's where I'm supposed to be. I wish I had the words to tell him how much I loved him, but the only words I know seem so cheap, and insubstantial compared to the way I feel. I have been struggling with this for quite some time now, but he serves as such a major source of inspiration for me. So, hopefully soon I will find a way to show him exactly how much love is pouring out of me.
So, heres to 2010, a year so full of promises, hope, adventures, love, empires, and togetherness.
9336 forever.
-Paw
ps I dont claim to be a good writer.
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